Dear Reader,
Today is the day after New Years. I hope you had the most joyous of Holidays. Regardless of what your holidays consist of I hope it was filled with food, fun, and freedom. Something I feel we all need to be aware of. Ourselves. I wish that your New Years Resolution will be eventful, fun, and something unique to you. I want you to know that I wish you the best of New Years and the most interesting of years. 2012, from the stories I have heard and the post I have seen all over the place. It was a great year for so many folks. Something I was amazed to read and hear. I smiled brightly to know that I helped make some of those Christmases, Hanukkahs, and Kwanzaas great. I was glad to celebrate them with my friends as well.
Christmas is a holiday I celebrate (as does the majority of the world). I don't celebrate it for the religious background behind it, but I continue to celebrate it because the feeling the season gives me and because the feeling I get when I see my family. Growing up it was the single holiday where my families where not being mean to each other and actually came together to be decent to each other. It's the single time I felt "Family" and not bullshit filled with smiles. Which, was most the year with my family.
Growing up I use to always tell my family what I wanted for Christmas. I have friends who still do that, and I just cannot phantom why they do it? I mean, it's nice to know people want to make you happy by getting you what you want. I just really don't want for anything. I honestly have become my Grandmother. I literally yell at people when they spend money on me. There are better things to spend it on than myself, like bills! That's way more important than I. So, when I get something I normally go "Now why did you get me something? I told you I didn't want anything and I don't want for anything." I mean, I accept it because that is the proper thing to do, though I feel awkward doing such. I just want to be with people for the holidays, that's meant more to me now than anything.
My New Years Resolution is to "Find the Next Great Adventure". No matter where or what it is. I'm going to find that single thing in my life that will fuel me for years to come. Rather it be a person or a place. Even an project or community. It's going to be the next great thing I do with my life and I will find it this 2013! Which, is exciting to think about, but I just cannot stop going. I'm that little engine that could or a shooting star. I'm just a little shooting star! I'm happy to know that this will be a fun task to undertake and not like those others New Years Resolutions I have made over the years. This one shall be special.
I was happy to spend the holidays with my loved ones, and even more so to see my Mother. I haven't gotten to see her as much since she moved away and the holidays are the times I get to see her now. I'm sad about this, but she's happy. Which is all that matters. It was just nice that Thanksgiving and Christmas where so close to each other. I'll always love my Mum and that's not gonna change. I just wish I could see her more. Growing up means growing apart but growing together in other ways. We still talk, but I just don't know how I feel about this whole moving away thing. I hate it, but if the person is happy that's all that matters.
I'm also happy that this New Year has been filled with everything I would want so far. So, that's good to think about. It's been only two days long BUT it's grand to know that it hasn't sucked just yet. I hope you all have had that same experience and I also hope you all had the holigays you have wanted. That's what matters most this time of year, doing what you love with or without the folks you love. It's part of the feeling. You are included. Which is grand. I love you all and I wish you the best of New Years.
Tegan Rowan Stryker
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